READ: How beauty queen Angelique de Leon turned pain into power

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, and Binibining Pilipinas 2014 contestant Angelique de Leon proved that through her transformation.

“When people ask me why and how I lost all the weight, I told them it’s because I wanted to pursue Binibining Pilipinas,” de Leon shared in her Facebook post. “That’s not the whole story.”

Read the whole story below:

I was in a 7-year relationship with an ex. I must admit, I started off as a confident woman who was very secure with her relationship with her boyfriend. I was too confident I guess. I let myself go and started eating 9 cups of rice in just one sitting. I was too young and naive and a bit of a hopeless romantic that I believed in the fact that the change in my weight would not affect my relationship with him.

I didn’t know it was an issue. It wasn’t an issue. He still made me feel loved and appreciated despite the weight gain.

But then things happened, naive couples making petty problems get big to a point that certain situations were blown out of proportion, hurtful words were said and decisions were made.

It was my first real heartbreak. 7 years? It must be.

Then we had an agreement to not date anyone within our circle of friends or people he met because of me and vice versa. He suddenly gasped and I felt a bit of hesitation in his eyes. I asked him, “Why?” and he said, “Remember during Myra’s birthday? You were dancing at the table with her bestfriend?” and I said “Yes. Why?” He replied “I kinda want to date her. Does she have a boyfriend?”

And that was the moment the fat girl’s soul died. I was shocked. I wasn’t even mad. I was… lost.

I was depressed for 3 weeks and lost 30 lbs in that amount of time. I couldn’t get out of my room. My eyes were swelling. I was starving myself because the girl he liked was really thin and I started to feel insufficient. It was a very dark place for me. It came to a point that I wanted to kill myself. Yes, I thought of committing suicide because of a heartbreak.

I lost myself. I lost the happy confident girl. I lost the sweet girl who would do anything for love. I lost Angelique.

I was trying to save whatever we had. I begged him and went to his house. I cried and begged as if my life depended on it. I even had a script with me that I wrote on the way to his place so I can make sure that I’ll be able to say everything I wanted to say.

He looked into my eyes and finally said “We can’t save this.”

I went home. I was sobbing. I still couldn’t let it go.

A few weeks later, I called him. I was in my room sobbing and talking to him over the phone. I was still begging and begging and begging while he was watching Binibining Pilipinas 2010. He keeps on blurting out how beautiful and sexy the girls were while I was trying to save the relationship. He kept on repeating it. I felt disrespected.

…and then I snapped and stopped crying.

Then I told him…

“You know what? Go f*ck yourself. You will see me in Binibining Pilipinas and I won’t even remember your number if you try to call me.”

And the rest is history.

I lost 50lbs in total and slowly tried to get the happy-go-lucky Angelique back though I completely lost the part of me that believed in true love towards others — PURE UNFILTERED LOVE. I now only believed that there’s only one person who can give that to you.

YOU.

Eventually, I realized I wanted to do it for myself and not because of him. I wanted to prove to myself that I am capable regardless of what he says. I did things the right way and ate healthy and stayed as fit as possible up to this day.

P.S. He did text me after my 2014 stint and I replied “Who’s this?”

 

That’s how you overcome a breakup: come out stronger than ever before.

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